Subj: ?? [attn: kalen]

[jamie]

Date: Sun, 18 May 2014, 12:04pm
From: icemoryst@hotmail.com
To: [email address]

Ok. Who are you?

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Date: Sun, 18 May 2014, 1:58pm
From: theotherovercaffeinatedlion@gmail.com
To: icemoryst@hotmail.com

Kalen Holliday.

That probably doesn't answer your question though. This is not really the best medium for this discussion, but I will try. I am someone with what I would assume are similar interests to yours in Denver. I'm in contact with a number of other people who share those interests.

We're all wary and skittish about meetings, and with good enough reason. But, if you think you'd like to get over that, we could meet. I'll let you pick out time and place and all such if that will help.

Or we can keep being cryptic here in e-mails. That's okay too.

You seem like you might be new to our scene around here, if not to Denver. Hopefully you'll stick around, meet up with a few of us. It is, of course, your choice. And the offer is open. Take your time. Five minutes. Five years. Anytime you decide you're ready.

Whatever you decide, all the best,

-K.

[jamie]

Date: Mon, 19 May 2014, 11:02am
From: icemoryst@hotmail.com
To: theotherovercaffeinatedlion@gmail.com

How can u tell what my interests are when u didn't even talk to me tho??

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Interests is not precisely the word I want, but we're a bit constrained by the form of discussion. I got a sense, on a basic level, of something very important to you. Based on the way you looked at me, it is my guess that you got some sense of me in that regard as well. Considering that fact that we can do that, there are a number of considerations we have, whether you know about them or not, that people you do not have that experience with do not.

Unfortunately, that is one of a number of things that I cannot really explain to you in e-mail. Beyond any concerns about what I should or shouldn't be telling you, there are things that I can illustrate (figuratively, not with a pen) though not explain.

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[Following one disastrous coffee shop meeting by a couple hours.]

That did not go particularly well, and that is undoubtedly largely my fault. I knew the random people who showed up and I am used to that happening and I am not trying to navigate a new city and figure out who I can and cannot trust.

It isn't easy for us either. If we trust the wrong person it doesn't just hurt us, it can hurt everyone else we've brought in and told that they have a reasonably safe space now. I've seen what happens when something like this falls that way, and the short version is bodies and smoldering ruins. It isn't pretty.

You didn't do that. Odds are you wouldn't have done that. I should have remembered more of that and less a host of other things and not snapped at you.

Probably you're done with me, and that is fine. But, I wasn't lying, finding time to help you is a thing I would have done. I still would.

Probably the best help for now from me though is that you can reach L. at <email address>.

Wherever you decide you're going, I do wish you the best of luck.

-K.