08-15-2013, 11:45 AM
Sid is awake in the neighborhood of two eighteen a.m. Tuesday-into-Wednesday night. Not because she's still awake. Sid is not a particularly light sleeper, but tonight she sleeps in fits. The first time her phone gives off that odd little blip she's either just drifting off or just drifting up. Her phone goes off and for a moment she imagines or dreams an orange-rimmed hole leading into a void. Then it goes off again, and again and again and again in rapid fire succession and the holes are all over the room and Sid is frowning with her eyes closed as her consciousness starts to stir and then she moves. She squeezes her eyes open in the dark basement of her room. A hand pokes out from beneath the blankets to feel around the side table until her fingers knock into her phone.
She gets the last message first and scrolls up to:
Pan.
Does it make her a bad person that Sid's first reaction is relief? She doesn't think so. As has been mentioned, she doesn't know Pan, she's not connected to him like the others are. And also: he's a Disciple. He is older. He was there for the Ascension War or whatever. If Sera isn't texting Sid to let her know the man is dead, then some part of her mind believes he's not going to die. Not tonight, anyway.
She sits up as she scrolls back down, the light of her phone's display casting her face in an eerie blue light. She can't see Sera walking around her room in the dark. Sera can't see her sitting in her own room in the dark. But in some way they are connected in this moment, these two women, by technology, by the darkness.
Sid types back:
Okay.
Okay she got it, really. Okay message received. Not It's Okay, Sid's been terrible at optimism ever since her Awakening when all the optimism in her was, shall we say, knocked out of her.
Then:
I can come over.
And she can, too. She can go and spend time with Sera, she can call in sick to work - she gets sick time now that they're taking her one full time, she gets benefits, too, whoopdee doo - and she can spend time with her friend. She realizes right after she hits SEND that she kind of wants Sera to say OK even though it's the middle of the night.
And, in the interests of being open and honest despite where that's gotten her in the last few days, she sends, before Sera can outright reject her, too:
I want to.
She gets the last message first and scrolls up to:
Pan.
Does it make her a bad person that Sid's first reaction is relief? She doesn't think so. As has been mentioned, she doesn't know Pan, she's not connected to him like the others are. And also: he's a Disciple. He is older. He was there for the Ascension War or whatever. If Sera isn't texting Sid to let her know the man is dead, then some part of her mind believes he's not going to die. Not tonight, anyway.
She sits up as she scrolls back down, the light of her phone's display casting her face in an eerie blue light. She can't see Sera walking around her room in the dark. Sera can't see her sitting in her own room in the dark. But in some way they are connected in this moment, these two women, by technology, by the darkness.
Sid types back:
Okay.
Okay she got it, really. Okay message received. Not It's Okay, Sid's been terrible at optimism ever since her Awakening when all the optimism in her was, shall we say, knocked out of her.
Then:
I can come over.
And she can, too. She can go and spend time with Sera, she can call in sick to work - she gets sick time now that they're taking her one full time, she gets benefits, too, whoopdee doo - and she can spend time with her friend. She realizes right after she hits SEND that she kind of wants Sera to say OK even though it's the middle of the night.
And, in the interests of being open and honest despite where that's gotten her in the last few days, she sends, before Sera can outright reject her, too:
I want to.