06-28-2014, 08:53 PM
6-23
So Im at the library. Not the city library - I wanted to see what it was like to be on a college campus since Im not ever actually going to go to college. Even if things turned out different I dont think I would ever actually go. I cant see the point. All these kids are in here hunched over their books and the a/c is on but sunlight is coming in the windows anyway so it feels super hot and I like reading and learning and everything but I like being able to go outside if I want to go outside too.
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OK now Im outside.
So I havent actually read a lot of physics books but I think its sweet they make you think of me. Most of what I know about science I learned from listening to my parents talk. It wasnt just my dad who was super into that stuff. My mom knows all the constellations and knows a lot about water which sounds kind of stupid when I just say it like 'MY MOM KNOWS A LOT ABOUT WATER' but theres a lot to water so its kind of like an understatement. She also knows a lot about medicine which maybe the 2 go together since humans are mostly water--
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6-24
Got interrupted by ultimate frisbee. I played it for like an hour with these guys yesterday and I still dont know what makes ultimate frisbee different from regular frisbee. Less clothes I think.
Anyway one time I asked my mom why people drown if theyre mostly water and she thought that was the funniest thing Id ever said in my life. You know how you say something sort of funny but mostly stupid so your mom has to tell the story 30 times a year after that because if you dont embarrass your kid at least every time youre out in public together people think youre a bad parent? That was how stupid that question was. I was like 6 and Im 19 now and Im pretty sure the villagers in Tasmania or wherever the hell Dar Es Salam is have heard that story like 12 times already.
Hand cramp.
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6-26
I think your super tall nice guy named Richard is the same super tall nice guy named Richard I met at Adams bookstore when I first got here. He was buying a Fitzgerald book.
!! - thats what I was telling you. I like reading all sorts of stuff but Dad had this thing about me reading fiction. He thought there was so much in the universe we still didnt know that it was a waste of time to be reading about something someone made up. We got into this big fight one time because thats totally not true. Nothing is a waste of time. All we have is time and it doesnt matter how awesome we are or how big of an impact we make on the world - everybody ends up being worm food in the end. All you can really hope for is that people will still talk about you a thousand years later but all those people are going to die eventually anyway. Nothing matters.
I still think that and Dad kind of agreed w/ me after we were done arguing. But he still would make this face if he caught me reading something someone made up. You know that dad face dads make.
What is a euthanatos?
I guess you can just tell me on Saturday.
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6-27
So I looked up "euthanatos" at the library and it said it means good death in greek. I ended up reading about the legality of euthanasia for like an hour and I think the librarian thinks Im disturbed.
WTF, Poirot?
The next two pages consist of notes Alicia took and diagrams she drew while reading about electronic alarm systems.
So Im at the library. Not the city library - I wanted to see what it was like to be on a college campus since Im not ever actually going to go to college. Even if things turned out different I dont think I would ever actually go. I cant see the point. All these kids are in here hunched over their books and the a/c is on but sunlight is coming in the windows anyway so it feels super hot and I like reading and learning and everything but I like being able to go outside if I want to go outside too.
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OK now Im outside.
So I havent actually read a lot of physics books but I think its sweet they make you think of me. Most of what I know about science I learned from listening to my parents talk. It wasnt just my dad who was super into that stuff. My mom knows all the constellations and knows a lot about water which sounds kind of stupid when I just say it like 'MY MOM KNOWS A LOT ABOUT WATER' but theres a lot to water so its kind of like an understatement. She also knows a lot about medicine which maybe the 2 go together since humans are mostly water--
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6-24
Got interrupted by ultimate frisbee. I played it for like an hour with these guys yesterday and I still dont know what makes ultimate frisbee different from regular frisbee. Less clothes I think.
Anyway one time I asked my mom why people drown if theyre mostly water and she thought that was the funniest thing Id ever said in my life. You know how you say something sort of funny but mostly stupid so your mom has to tell the story 30 times a year after that because if you dont embarrass your kid at least every time youre out in public together people think youre a bad parent? That was how stupid that question was. I was like 6 and Im 19 now and Im pretty sure the villagers in Tasmania or wherever the hell Dar Es Salam is have heard that story like 12 times already.
Hand cramp.
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6-26
I think your super tall nice guy named Richard is the same super tall nice guy named Richard I met at Adams bookstore when I first got here. He was buying a Fitzgerald book.
!! - thats what I was telling you. I like reading all sorts of stuff but Dad had this thing about me reading fiction. He thought there was so much in the universe we still didnt know that it was a waste of time to be reading about something someone made up. We got into this big fight one time because thats totally not true. Nothing is a waste of time. All we have is time and it doesnt matter how awesome we are or how big of an impact we make on the world - everybody ends up being worm food in the end. All you can really hope for is that people will still talk about you a thousand years later but all those people are going to die eventually anyway. Nothing matters.
I still think that and Dad kind of agreed w/ me after we were done arguing. But he still would make this face if he caught me reading something someone made up. You know that dad face dads make.
What is a euthanatos?
I guess you can just tell me on Saturday.
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6-27
So I looked up "euthanatos" at the library and it said it means good death in greek. I ended up reading about the legality of euthanasia for like an hour and I think the librarian thinks Im disturbed.
WTF, Poirot?
The next two pages consist of notes Alicia took and diagrams she drew while reading about electronic alarm systems.
Look. I have school. And RP. And all my other time is taken up by sheer, unreasoning panic. I don't have time for Reddit.
-- ixphaelaeon
-- ixphaelaeon