11-18-2014, 08:25 PM
[Last week or so, maybe - ]
"You keep putting it off."
Morning or what passes for it on Corona Street, which means afternoon most places in the world, the sun well past its Zenith and a sleepy disciple sitting on the marble island in the center of the warm white kitchen, wearing sunglasses and boxers covered in Mr. Yuck symbols and a Raincoats t-shirt worn tissue-thin. Sipping from a mug of freshly brewed tea, breathing in, and breathing out, and - you know - kind of smiling at Dan where he leans back against the farmhouse sink, tattooed arms crossed, the heel of one hand flat against the bicep of the other one. TV On the Radio on the radio, hahahah, but the music is turned down. Not quite low enough that it could be background noise but it's the beat and the voice that comes through, not the electronica drone.
"I was hung over yesterday. And Dee had that thing and I wanted - "
"That's bullshit, Sera. You're always hung over. And you can stop being hung over whenever you want."
He can't see her eyes but he can see tension in her narrow shoulders, the supple thread of a reaction that is equal parts resistance and recognition and resistance of that recognition and then she - frowning - looks away. Down at the mug in her hand, the half-moon of light reflected in the surface of the tea, her shadow over the marble, aware, suddenly, of the chill in the room.
The sunglasses swallow half her face but his eyes are on her profile, the sharp frame of it against the foreground, these afternoon shadows behind her. Except for TV On the Radio (I'm a happy idiot -), the house is quiet. Dee and Rick are gone. They have normal lives. Or at least, they have fucking jobs.
"I think you should go." He tells her, quietly, solidly. "Or, you should not-go. One or the other, but if you're going you need to stop dragging it out. Say fuck it, pack a bag, and get on a plane. Now, do you want scrambled eggs or hashbrowns?"
"Which one?"
"Which one what?"
She gives him one of her little shrugs, so easily read as sullen. Which is in fact internal, so aware, on the absolute cusp of feeling, in a way that is hard for him to name.
"You know."
She does know. He reads that knowledge in her as she drops her sharp little chin to her chest and snags the collar of her tee between her teeth.
"Nutella croissant."
"Hmm?"
"That's what I want for breakfast. Then I'm gonna go pack."
"You keep putting it off."
Morning or what passes for it on Corona Street, which means afternoon most places in the world, the sun well past its Zenith and a sleepy disciple sitting on the marble island in the center of the warm white kitchen, wearing sunglasses and boxers covered in Mr. Yuck symbols and a Raincoats t-shirt worn tissue-thin. Sipping from a mug of freshly brewed tea, breathing in, and breathing out, and - you know - kind of smiling at Dan where he leans back against the farmhouse sink, tattooed arms crossed, the heel of one hand flat against the bicep of the other one. TV On the Radio on the radio, hahahah, but the music is turned down. Not quite low enough that it could be background noise but it's the beat and the voice that comes through, not the electronica drone.
"I was hung over yesterday. And Dee had that thing and I wanted - "
"That's bullshit, Sera. You're always hung over. And you can stop being hung over whenever you want."
He can't see her eyes but he can see tension in her narrow shoulders, the supple thread of a reaction that is equal parts resistance and recognition and resistance of that recognition and then she - frowning - looks away. Down at the mug in her hand, the half-moon of light reflected in the surface of the tea, her shadow over the marble, aware, suddenly, of the chill in the room.
The sunglasses swallow half her face but his eyes are on her profile, the sharp frame of it against the foreground, these afternoon shadows behind her. Except for TV On the Radio (I'm a happy idiot -), the house is quiet. Dee and Rick are gone. They have normal lives. Or at least, they have fucking jobs.
"I think you should go." He tells her, quietly, solidly. "Or, you should not-go. One or the other, but if you're going you need to stop dragging it out. Say fuck it, pack a bag, and get on a plane. Now, do you want scrambled eggs or hashbrowns?"
"Which one?"
"Which one what?"
She gives him one of her little shrugs, so easily read as sullen. Which is in fact internal, so aware, on the absolute cusp of feeling, in a way that is hard for him to name.
"You know."
She does know. He reads that knowledge in her as she drops her sharp little chin to her chest and snags the collar of her tee between her teeth.
"Nutella croissant."
"Hmm?"
"That's what I want for breakfast. Then I'm gonna go pack."
But my heart is wild and my bones are steel
And I could kill you with my bare hands if I was free.
- Phosphorescent, Song for Zula
And I could kill you with my bare hands if I was free.
- Phosphorescent, Song for Zula